It can be said that 2020 was the year of confusion, indecision, grief and unnecessary drama! But through that chaos came many positives. There is nothing like ripping the bandage off and looking at yourself, ‘Full Monty’ style - inside and out.
Many of us were able to test our mettle and see what we’re made of. Some experienced hard times and difficulties they would never have imagined. Many have lost someone, some more than one. The term ‘what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger’ certainly applies to me personally.
In a four month period, I lost my beloved Mother at the ripe old age of 90, my baby brother; who was my best friend, my favorite aunt, and cousin, and broke up with what I thought was the man of my dreams, because he was blind to my worth.
Through all of that, I stayed true to my mantra of ‘Love and Light’. I forgave those that needed to be forgiven. I ceased contact with those who were nothing more than energy drains or negative Nellie’s, and deepened my connection with those who gave the same amount of energy to a relationship with me. Reciprocity is the key.
I stood firm in my promise to myself to eliminate and cast out all energy vampires – family, friends and workmates alike. I started a new business, decorated a new house, helped those who were going through tough circumstances, and removed myself from those focused on worldly things such as vanity, lust, greed, envy, gluttony, anger, misery, selfishness and sloth. I replaced people with those traits with people with virtue, charity, humility, chastity, gratitude, temperance, patience and diligence.
None of this was easy and it was an eye opener to me that I had somehow turned a blind eye to those negative trait people, of whom, I really had nothing in common with - and not only allowed them into my life, but dealt with them for such a long time.
I began speaking my voice, moving to the front of the line to share the knowledge I garnered over the course of my life with those who want to listen and learn, and I now walk in my truth. I made working with and helping homeless teens my new mission in life – because if a person experiences breakdowns at this stage of life, it will most definitely impact their future outcome.
And I FINALLY decided to put myself FIRST! Many of you are probably thinking ‘well that’s kind of selfish,’ but no, it is not. I know I’m a different breed and my heart is gold and I live by the mindset that I will not do anything to anyone that I would not want done to me. Every thought and decision is made ‘with harm to none.’
Over the past few years, I did some familial research and found a strong history of Shamanism in my family tree and have since learned that I am a Healer, an energy channeler – and I’m darned good at it! I have a host of clients and friends that share my outlook on life and I am happier than I have been in a very long time.
So, 2020, hat’s off to you and your no nonsense, I’m going to break you down to build you up attitude! While tough going at times, through the shedding of many tears; I found laughter, joy, and a newfound strength and resolve and the knowledge that I am in control of my destiny and that I have a duty to myself to make sure I allow only what I feel is necessary, in my life. I have worked on my shadow side and found some interesting info about myself. I have worked hard to balance my light and dark sides, Yin and Yang.
I am still a work in progress and I embrace the honor of being able to work on myself. Each day I find out something new and interesting…about me! I laugh more now - a hearty, deep, joyous laughter. I cry at the drop of a dime, without reservation, hesitation, doubt or fear, to release the deep inner hurts. I fight for what I believe in and speak my mind with compassion and conviction.
2020 really taught me that all that glitters, really isn’t gold. No pain, no gain. In 2020 I put it all on the table and am oh so thankful I was given the opportunity to do so. I know my worth. I know my limits and I damned sure know my boundaries.
I know there is much more growing for me to do and I am oh so ready to catapult into 2021 and share my newfound gifts with the world!
So, a fond farewell 2020, I bid you adieu!